OK... I'm back to update...

Finally, ITP had started... get kinda tired by the end of the week, cause everyday I need to reach my work place (which is a Macpherson there) at around 7am and I only reached home at around 7pm. But luckily, so far, the job was fun... =]

The most unforgettable part of this week would be today...

My youngest aunt flew to Hong Kong to work today. She's not going there for a short time... She's going to stay there for at least 3 years.

At first, I was totally ok with the idea of her going over there to work... Until I talked about it with Kelvin on our way home from work.

The more I talked about it, the more I could not continue, the more blurred my vision became (but I managed to hold back my tears)...

Cause my aunt has always been a very good sister cum friend for my mum to voice out her pain and problems... and some of it was caused by me... Whenever my mum couldn't get her message (eg. "Don't keep going out", "Don't stay out too late", etc) across for a very long time, or think that it had fallen into deaf-ears, she will asked my aunt to talk to me... But now, my aunt is no longer in Singapore... I don't know how my mum is going to feel...

I dare say that I'm very a very filial daughter... I want to have and enjoy my freedom... I don't like to be tied down by rules and lots of restrictions. I will get more and more rebellious when the number of rules and restrictions applied on me increased. But the way my mum do things is to placed layers and layers of restrictions on us, especially on me.

Sometimes, I forced myself to do stuffs that I don't want to, just to please her and make her feel happy... But, when my heck care my mum for too long, she will turned to my aunt for help.. hoping that she will be able to talk some sense into me.

But now my aunt is in Hong Kong, my mum will have a companion lesser to share her problems with. I felt sad for my mum... I don't know if I can lessen her worries.. Whatever that I done was totally me. Does that mean that I has to change??? I really don't like to be tied down... I like freedom...

What am I supposed to do now???