It has really been awhile since I last updated! Definitely, many many things had happened..

I sudden feel like posting something that I have in mind..

I don't know why.. But recently, I'm starting to lose confidence in things that I do and feel..

Not only in work.. But also in feelings towards people..

I know that guys don't really like gals who are very forward.. And I know that, sometimes, I can be very forward..

After that very bad experience of mine, I don't have the confidence to express my feelings n thoughts like before..

Right now.. A part of me is actually worried that if I were to be rejected, I might lose a good friend.. While other part of me is kinda worried that he might not know or notice the feelings I have towards him!
There's also a tiny part of me that worried that the bad history would repeat itself.. And he would have fallen for another person, who is among our clique..

I don't really wanna experience that kinda pain again! Once is already bad enough! I don't want need anymore of it to remind me how painful it is..

Although I'm getting to know him better nowadays.. I still can't help to think that he doesn't really want me to know him that well..

I understand that things are never really in our control.. What the other person's action and thinking are, would not be in our control too..

What I really hope now, would be able to know what is the feelings he has for me.. If possible, I would hope that he would reply my messages faster and show me more care and concern!

Hope that this would be able to come true~! :]